Mile Marker 10: Holding Off

I've wanted to post a blog on my desires for motherhood for a long time, but I just keep thinking that I shouldn't.  Whether its because I'm still very young, newly married, I have my whole life ahead of me, thinking that you don't blog about this kind of thing, thinking that this decision should be a secret, other people have a legitimate struggle, other people have been struggling longer, or a myriad of other thoughts rolling around in my head.

A lady at work told me recently that I'm not ready to have kids yet (I believe there are other issues there, but mostly I think she said it because of my age).


I've heard other married couples with kids say to wait because of the stress that is added after having kids.

I just know that my husband and I have had a solid relationship.  We were both raised in similar family situations.  We communicate with each other. We're getting our finances in order.  I know we're not perfect, but who is?

We've talked about kids for forever. We may or may not have names picked out already (I told you I'm a planner). We know how many we want (I'd probably still take more, but we'll see when we get there).  The thing is, I was only on the pill for 5 months, and I've been off the pill for 7 months now.  I just don't understand why I'm not pregnant yet.

I've done SO much reading online about pregnancy, the pill, how the pill effects getting pregnant, etc. Honestly, I never really wanted to take the pill, but I did thinking that we were going to wait a year or two before even talking about kids.  Then we got married.  A month later, I accidentally missed my birth control for a couple days.  We started talking about it.  Two months later I stopped taking the pill. Now, I just think I should be pregnant already.(The impatient bone bones in my body are going cray cray over here.)

I suppose (read as "I know") I just need to trust God that the timing will be His timing.

Why is waiting so hard?  Is there anything else that I could be doing, or should I just trust the bigger (and unknown to me) plan?

I don't really have any other choice but to wait right now.  

Maybe that's a good thing. 

Maybe I should learn something.

xoxo,
Linda  

Notice:  What made me decide to write this post was simply the fact that I like reading blogs that are open and honest about real things because I find that I relate to those people.  I am hoping to be the same in my blog.  Also, I don't want this post to seem depressing because I am really happy with my life and I feel incredibly blessed to be in this season of life!  I just want to share the thoughts that I have in the hopes of sharing with a community of friends with similar thoughts or ideas or absolutely opposite ones! :) Capeesh? 

Mile Marker 6: Discussing Babies

My sister was due to have her third child on March 1st.  My husband and I even drove home for the birth.

The birth did not happen that weekend.

In fact, the Dr. did not even induce until March 10th.

Baby Nyeema Ella-Jane was born Monday, March 11th at 12:10 pm.  She was 8lbs 3ozs and 21 inches long.   She is precious!

Just moments later, my sister (keep in mind she just gave birth to a baby) was face timing me!

A few days have passed now, and mama and baby are home and healthy.  I couldn’t decide who Nyeema looked more like (out of her two older sisters), so I tracked down baby pictures of each of them at the same age (a day or two old).

Nizaria, Xenniyah, and Nyeema

New baby Nyeema, definitely looks like Nizaria! I won’t get to meet the new baby for a little while. Hopefully it works out to head home for Easter, but I’m not sure yet.  It’s times like this that I wish there weren’t 8.5 hrs and 550 miles separating our lives.  I am very thankful for technology that allows us to communicate almost every waking hour.

The more time that passes, the more I want to be a mother.  It seriously seems like anything and everything makes my desire grow.

We recently got a new puppy (as mentioned in a previous post).

Catahoula Molly!

She is all things snuggly and adorable! Even this puppy is making me want to have a baby!  I just put her little legs around my neck and she will nuzzle me for the night.  Seriously, I’ve never met a dog that loves to be that close to a person.

I just have to keep trusting that my time will come and that whenever that is, it will be the perfect time.

Do I have any readers out there that are in a similar situation?  Tell me about you!

xoxo,
Linda